Wladimir Klitschko Addresses Hayden Panettiere's Passing with a Final Message

Hayden Panettiere's sudden death has left her family and fans searching for answers, and now the father of her daughter has broken his silence.

Heavyweight Boxing Champion Wladimir Klitschko's first public message after Hayden Panettiere's death is deeply personal — but it is only one part of a troubling picture emerging about Hayden's final months.

Hayden died on August 16, 2026, at age 36 after an acquaintance called 911 to report an unresponsive woman at Judson Mill Lofts in Greenville, South Carolina.

According to dispatch audio obtained by the Daily Mail, the call was made at approximately 1:51 p.m. A female dispatcher initially described Hayden as suffering a "cardiac arrest," while a male dispatcher moments later referred to a suspected overdose at the home.

Officers and paramedics performed chest compressions as they tried to save her life. Hayden was pronounced dead at the scene at approximately 2:32 p.m., just over 40 minutes after the emergency call.

On Monday, a spokesman for the City of Greenville Police told the Daily Mail that officers accompanied by EMS personnel had responded to a report of an unresponsive female at Judson Mill Lofts, located at 701 Easley Bridge Road.

"Upon arrival, medical assistance was administered; however, the individual, later identified as Hayden Panettiere, was pronounced deceased at the scene," the spokesman said.

The police department confirmed that the case remained under investigation with the Greenville County Coroner's Office and that the preliminary investigation had not indicated any signs of foul play or suspicious circumstances.

An acquaintance of Hayden's placed the 911 call, police said, and no further details were available for release. Judson Mill Lofts is a former textile mill dating to 1912 that was converted into apartments. The development includes studios and three-bedroom units reportedly renting for between $1,295 and $3,485 a month. No cause of death has been announced.

But in the days surrounding Hayden's death, Wladimir's public words took on an unsettling significance. Before he issued his emotional tribute to Hayden, he had shared a brief message about resilience that now reads very differently in hindsight.

On August 18, Wladimir shared a message on X about resilience, describing it as the strength to keep getting back up and refusing to give up after life's hardest blows.

Two days after Hayden's death, Wladimir addressed the loss publicly for the first time in an Instagram post that also acknowledged the daughter they shared.

Wladimir Finally Speaks After Hayden's Death

"Our family is going through a time of profound shock and grief," Wladimir wrote. "The announcement of Hayden’s tragic death saddens me deeply. She left this world far too soon."

Although the two were no longer together romantically, Wladimir made clear that Hayden remained deeply important to him. "Hayden was, although no longer my partner, an important part of my life and the mother of our daughter, Kaya," he wrote. He also reflected on Hayden's career and the pressures she faced while growing up in the entertainment industry:

"She built an incredible career through immense talent, while also facing the darker sides of a very demanding industry. Nothing will erase the times we shared or the place she had in our lives."

Wladimir then turned his attention to their daughter, Kaya Evdokia Klitschko, promising that Hayden's memory would remain part of her life. "To our daughter Kaya, I will always speak of her mother with respect and make sure she remembers the person she was."

He asked the public to respect the family's privacy while they grieve and thanked those who had offered their condolences. Then came the final words of his message to Hayden:

"Rest easy, Hayden. May you find eternal peace. #WeLoveYouHayden."

But while Wladimir's tribute offered a glimpse into the family's grief, new details from the apartment where Hayden died have raised more questions about what happened in her final moments.

A Disturbing Clue Was Found on the Mattress

According to TMZ's report, Narcan was found inside the apartment where Hayden died. The device used to administer the medication was reportedly found on a mattress.

Narcan is the brand name for naloxone, a medication used to reverse an opioid overdose rapidly. The National Institute on Drug Abuse explains that naloxone attaches to opioid receptors and can restore normal breathing when someone's breathing has slowed or stopped because of an opioid overdose.

The medication itself, however, does not establish who received it. TMZ reported that two ambulances rushed to the apartment, raising the possibility that two people were in distress at the scene. As a result, it remained unclear whether Hayden was the person who received the Narcan.

Epinephrine was also used, according to TMZ. The medication is commonly used during resuscitation efforts when someone is experiencing cardiac arrest. The official NARCAN information describes the nasal spray as a treatment designed to reverse a life-threatening opioid emergency rapidly and notes that it can be used even when opioids are not ultimately present.

That distinction is important as authorities continue examining what happened. The presence of Narcan does not, by itself, establish the cause of Hayden's death.

But there was another unsettling part of the story — Hayden's physical condition had already become increasingly difficult to hide in the months before her death.

Her Final Months Were Marked by Increasing Mobility Problems

In March, Hayden was photographed at LAX using crutches while accompanied by Brian Hickerson. When asked about the crutches, Hayden explained in footage obtained by the Daily Mail that she was dealing with "some pinched nerves in my lower back."

She nevertheless tried to reassure people around her. She added that she was 'on the mend,' smiling and giving a thumbs-up before getting into a black SUV.

But according to people close to her, the problem was more serious than that brief public explanation suggested. Hayden's hairdresser and friend Erick Orellana told Page Six that she had experienced severe pain earlier in the year.

"I know she suffered earlier this year with her back," Erick said. He described the pain as "really severe " and said it affected Hayden's mobility.

"At one point, it was even hard for her to move her legs," Erick said. A second source told Page Six that Hayden sometimes appeared tired and also experienced anxiety. "Earlier this year, she did seem a little tired at times. But she was a night owl, and… she has a lot on her plate," the source said.

The insider also claimed Hayden "suffered from anxiety at times" and would "occasionally take medication for that."

"And every so often that could impact her speech," the source said. Erick nevertheless believed Hayden appeared to be improving. But then came footage from May that has taken on a very different meaning following her death.

A May Video Showed Hayden Struggling to Walk

One of Hayden's last videos was filmed in New York in May while she was promoting her memoir, This Is Me: A Reckoning. The footage, shared by Elder Ordonez on Instagram, showed Hayden walking while attending promotional appearances.

The video was posted after her death with a message expressing heartbreak over the footage and offering prayers for her family and loved ones. Viewers quickly focused on the way Hayden appeared to be walking.

One commenter wrote, "She looked a bit unsteady on her feet🥺♥️." Another said, "He was walking strangely at that moment, it seemed like something was wrong. 😢 Rip 🕊️" A third commenter wondered, "Her walk looked like she on some type of pain maybe, or it's just me idk."

Others asked, "Anyone noticed how she walks?" One more person wrote, "Something was definitely wrong with her feet 😢" The Daily Mail also reported that May footage appeared to show Hayden struggling to walk while out in New York, with her right leg visibly giving her trouble.

Later that day, she reportedly relied on an assistant for support as she arrived at CBS Studios. She held the woman's hand tightly as she walked inside, even as she smiled for those around her. Observers did not simply imagine the physical problems.

Hayden had spoken publicly about what she described as nerve damage in her lower back during a May interview with Women's Health. "I quite literally woke up and felt nothing but pins and needles from my waist down," she shared. "I wasn't able to bend my toes or lift my foot at all. No one was able to give me a solid answer."

She said the uncertainty became frightening enough that she wondered whether she could remain that way permanently. "It was like that for so long, that I was sitting there going, 'Oh my gosh, am I gonna be paralyzed for the rest of my... life?'"

"It's the scariest thing that's ever happened to me physically, for sure." None of those reported health problems has been established as a cause of Hayden's death.

Another complicated part of her final months was not fully known to the public at the time. For years, Hayden and Brian's relationship appeared to have gone through repeated breakups and reconciliations.

Hayden and Brian Were Apparently Still Together in Secret

But according to TMZ, the public version of their relationship was not the whole story. A source close to Brian claimed the couple had not broken up as many times as the public had been led to believe and were actually together while Hayden promoted her memoir in the months before her death.

They reportedly kept it quiet for her career. Hayden's team allegedly believed Brian was "bad for business" while she was promoting This Is Me: A Reckoning. According to TMZ, the couple's complicated history was seen as potentially damaging to book sales.

So, while Hayden and Brian were reportedly still romantically involved, they kept their relationship private. The secrecy apparently went beyond simply avoiding public appearances together.

TMZ reported that the pair remained in constant communication during Hayden's promotional tour, while people in their inner circle reportedly knew they were still together. Hayden was also asked about her relationship with Brian during a May appearance and reportedly laughed at the idea of marrying him.

Their private relationship is particularly notable because Brian had previously served jail time after pleading no contest to two charges stemming from alleged violent incidents involving Hayden.

Brian Had a Legal Setback Just Days Before Hayden Died

Just three days before Hayden's death, Brian suffered another legal setback. According to TMZ, a judge denied his request to have his past felony domestic violence convictions reduced to misdemeanors and his request to have the convictions expunged.

The ruling came on August 13, just days before Hayden died. Brian had pleaded no contest in April 2021 to two felony counts of injuring a spouse or girlfriend following a series of incidents involving Hayden between May 2019 and January 2020.

He had originally faced an eight-count criminal case. According to Page Six, Brian's petition noted that he had fulfilled the conditions of his probation.

He had previously been sentenced to 45 days in county jail, four years of formal probation, 52 mandatory domestic violence classes and a five-year restraining order. He ultimately served 33 days after receiving credit for 12 days already spent in custody.

Behind the headlines surrounding Hayden Panettiere's final months was a deeply personal family story involving Kaya, the daughter she shared with Wladimir.

Hayden spent years hearing other people tell the story of why her daughter, Kaya, lives thousands of miles away. But the now-late actress had increasingly filled in the missing pieces herself, and the reality she describes is far more complicated than simply "giving up" her child.

From the postpartum struggles that followed Kaya's birth to the devastating custody papers Hayden later signed, motherhood did not unfold the way the "Nashville" star once imagined it would.

Today, however, her daughter is thriving and speaks an astonishing number of languages. She also shared an "incredible" bond with her mom and shares the same with her dad. And there is one painful misunderstanding that the actress especially hopes Kaya herself never takes away from her mother's story.

Kaya's Arrival Made Hayden Panettiere a Mom for the First Time

Kaya was born on December 9, 2014, in Hawaii. According to People's report announcing Kaya's birth, the baby weighed 7 lbs., 14 oz. and measured 20 inches long.

"We are over the moon and madly in love!" the new parents said at the time. Hayden had largely kept quiet about her pregnancy, although her baby bump naturally became harder to hide. At the 2014 Emmys, she accidentally revealed that she and Wladimir were expecting a girl while talking about decorating and shopping for the baby.

"I'm thrilled that I am having a girl first because I feel like I know a lot about raising a strong woman," she told Hello! Magazine while discussing her pregnancy and then-impending motherhood. "I feel very empowered myself and I think my daughter will, too," she added.

At the time, Hayden was engaged to Wladimir. The couple had announced their engagement in 2013, more than a year before Kaya arrived. The first days of motherhood brought all the expected exhaustion, and some surprises.

Hayden later joked that she finally got her first uninterrupted night of sleep because Wladimir's mother had been eager to take care of the then-newborn overnight.

"Wlad's mom was desperate to take the baby for a night," Hayden recalled in People's first-photo story about the new family. "She looks like she didn't get much sleep, but I feel well-rested!"

She described becoming a parent as "such a surreal experience and so out of body," saying that she and Wladimir were simply getting to know the little person who had spent months growing inside her. Physically, however, recovery from childbirth was not easy.

"I'm limping around," Hayden said at the time, adding that she was still trying to understand what pregnancy had done to her body and which changes might be temporary or permanent. She even joked that she felt "like an 80-year-old woman trying to go down the stairs."

Kaya, meanwhile, was described by her mom as an easy and very sweet baby, albeit one with what Hayden called an "insatiable appetite." But behind those tender early moments, Hayden would eventually face a struggle she said she had not been prepared to recognize.

Years later, Hayden explained that she suffered from postpartum depression after Kaya's birth. The actress said part of what made the experience so frightening was that she did not understand what postpartum depression was or realize she should be watching for it.

"I wish I knew about postpartum depression. I wish I knew to look out for it," she told E! News while reflecting on her experience in 2023. Hayden said she thought "there was something seriously wrong" with her and turned to alcohol in an attempt to make herself feel better.

She recalled thinking, "Fireball will fix this — duh!" before discovering that any relief was fleeting and ultimately made things worse. The isolation was another painful component. Because Hayden had not known what she was experiencing, she felt she should somehow have been able to overcome it on her own.

Her struggle with postpartum depression was something she had spoken about publicly years earlier, but she later connected those emotional difficulties to a much broader battle. Hayden had also candidly addressed her struggles involving opioids and alcohol, which became part of the circumstances surrounding Kaya eventually living with her father.

The actress said she wished new mothers were told that an immediate, overwhelming sense of attachment is not the only possible reaction to giving birth. She recalled wanting someone to explain that it was not abnormal to meet a newborn and initially see a "crazy little creation" whom a parent would come to love more deeply as they got to know the child.

The Mayo Clinic's information on postpartum depression cited in E!'s report notes that symptoms can include severe mood swings and difficulty bonding with a baby. For Hayden, what followed was not just a private battle with her health; it ultimately changed the day-to-day structure of her daughter's childhood.

Kaya Went to Live with Her Father

When Kaya was still very young, she began living with Wladimir in Ukraine while Hayden was struggling. The circumstances surrounding that arrangement have become one of the most misunderstood — and emotionally charged — parts of the actress' life story.

During a September 2022 appearance on "Red Table Talk," Hayden was asked about the idea that she and Wladimir had simply agreed it was best for Kaya to be with her dad after the couple had already split for good in 2018. Her answer was striking.

"At first it was not because it wasn't a discussion," she said during the "Red Table Talk" conversation about relinquishing custody. Hayden explained that had Wladimir approached her and suggested that Kaya stay with him temporarily because of what she was going through, she probably would have understood the reasoning.

"Okay, that makes sense. I get it. I'll come there, you know, to visit and stuff like that," she said of how she believed such a conversation might have gone. Instead, Hayden said the way the situation unfolded was "very upsetting." Then came the paperwork.

"I mean, it was the worst signing those papers," Hayden recalled. "It was like the most heartbreaking thing I've ever, ever had to do in my life."

She clarified that the documents gave Wladimir full custody. At that point, Hayden said her intention was to focus on herself, recover, and eventually reach a place where the arrangement could change. She believed that once she was better, Kaya might return and she would have more time with her daughter. "But that didn't happen," Hayden stated.

Kaya was nearly three when the arrangement changed, and she initially believed her daughter was simply visiting her father in Ukraine. "It wasn't fully my decision," Hayden said on "Red Table Talk," as recounted in People's 2024 look at Kaya's life and her relationship with her mom. "In fact, I didn't even know it was happening until she was already over there."

That detail helps explain why Hayden has pushed back so strongly against the narrative that she casually chose to walk away from motherhood.

Hayden Later Said She Was 'Guilt Ridden'

By May 2026, Hayden was speaking even more candidly about what she felt during that period. At a panel connected to her memoir, "This Is Me: A Reckoning," she described the crushing guilt of knowing she was not in a position to parent Kaya the way she wanted to.

The actress admitted she had felt "guilt ridden" over being "completely incapable" of parenting her now-11-year-old daughter at the time, according to Page Six's report on her emotional recollection.

She also remembered a remark that particularly hurt. "The worst thing that somebody said to me is that it was a personal choice that I was making," Hayden said. Her response made clear just how impossible that characterization felt to her.

"Who would choose to feel like this? Like, how could you even say that to me?" she asked. Hayden described Kaya as a healthy, beautiful child who represented "everything to celebrate," making her inability to function as the mother she wanted to be even more painful.

"And I'm completely incapable of doing it," she said. "I felt so guilt ridden [sic] that I was incapable of doing it." Another moment seared itself into her memory: While walking through an airport, Hayden spotted a magazine cover featuring her face and a headline asking why she had given up her daughter.

"You might as well have taken a knife and stabbed me in the heart," she recalled. Hayden insisted anyone who truly knew her would know she would have done "absolutely anything" for Kaya. But she argued that loving a child can sometimes mean accepting a decision that does not make the parent feel better.

"Sometimes that means not what you want as a mom or what's going to make you feel good as a parent, but what's best for them," she said. Even the actual custody signing remains a painful memory.

Hayden shared that her father was present, while several other people unexpectedly arrived to witness her signing the paperwork. She recalled sitting in a restaurant and clenching her teeth so tightly so she would not begin sobbing.

Then, she heard people laughing and chuckling nearby. "I can't believe you can watch somebody who's obviously doing one of the most painful things in the world," she remembered thinking.

Afterward, Hayden said she went into the restaurant bathroom and locked herself inside as she confronted "the reality of the situation." Her memoir revisits experiences from that deeply difficult period of her life. But Kaya's story did not stop with the custody papers. As Hayden recovered, another consideration emerged: her daughter had built a life of her own.

By the Time Hayden Was Healthy, Kaya Had Built a Life Her Mom Did Not Want to Disrupt

In May 2026, Hayden gave one of her most expansive explanations yet of why Kaya remained with her father in Ukraine even after the actress got healthier. Speaking on Jay Shetty's "On Purpose" podcast, she explained that Kaya had spent substantial time in Europe and was deeply rooted there.

She had family and friends; she had extracurricular activities; she was learning the languages around her, and, in Hayden's view, her daughter had already built "a beautiful life."

By the time she herself finally became healthy, Hayden explained, "I felt like it would have been unfair of me to and selfish of me to try to pull her out [sic] away from this life that she had [...] created." Today, Hayden's daughter has grown up immersed in a multilingual environment.

By age 9, her mother said Kaya could speak English, Russian, Ukrainian and German, and was beginning to learn French. "She's a genius!" the proud mom had boasted in 2024.

She also contrasted Kaya's experience with language education in the United States, arguing that American children often begin learning additional languages only after their brains are less naturally receptive to them.

"But when they're babies and young, they're like a sponge," she said. "You can teach them anything." Hayden joked that Kaya might not appreciate her language skills yet, but her mother kept assuring her that one day she will. Language is hardly Kaya's only interest, as she is also, according to her mom, obsessed with horses.

Hayden believed that particular passion may run in the family. "I have horseback riding in my genetics," she said, noting that her great-uncle once won the Kentucky Derby. She also shared one particularly funny glimpse into Kaya's enthusiasm.

Hayden received a video of her daughter watching "Racing Stripes," a movie she apparently loves to replay. Kaya was sitting on a toy hippo and pretending to race it with such enthusiasm that Hayden joked she feared the toy's ears were going to be ripped off.

The girl is also a strong swimmer and loves the water — another quality Hayden had recognized in herself. "She's just like me," the actress previously said. Hayden recalled spending plenty of time in her pool while pregnant with Kaya and working on "Nashville." "And she came out just loving water," Hayden said.

By 2026, Hayden revealed that Kaya was not merely interested in horses but actually rides them. Yet the detail that perhaps surprised listeners most was how highly Hayden spoke of her daughter's emotional development.

Hayden Had Shared That Her Daughter Is 'Happy,' 'Solid' and Knows She Is Loved

At 11, Kaya has been living what her mother called an "incredible life." "She's an incredible little girl," Hayden had shared with Jay. The actress also spoke about the support system surrounding her. More importantly, she believed her daughter knew she had two parents who love her.

Hayden said she was confident in her heart that Kaya felt supported and insisted that their physical separation had not destroyed their relationship. "I have an incredible relationship with her," the mom said. Hayden would travel to see Kaya as much as possible and spent significant amounts of time talking to her through FaceTime.

Their conversations were apparently not limited to quick check-ins. "We talk about really deep things," Hayden revealed. She described what they shared as a "really intense, incredible" bond.

The actress also said she had paid close attention to ensuring Kaya never interpreted the circumstances of her childhood as abandonment. "She in no way feels abandoned," Hayden made clear. That had been something the mother said she had consciously stayed aware of.

For Hayden, parenting Kaya from another continent also meant trying to lead through example. Her daughter, she noted, was born to two very public and powerful parents pursuing dramatically different careers on separate continents, and Kaya apparently enjoyed watching both of them succeed. "She's our biggest fan," Hayden revealed further.

The actress believed seeing what her parents accomplish may help Kaya believe she can accomplish whatever she sets her own mind to. And Hayden saw something even more important in the way Kaya carries herself.

She described her daughter as "good" and "solid" and said Kaya's ability to love herself offers powerful reassurance that she feels loved. Watching an 11-year-old already show an ability to love both herself and other people, Hayden said, is more than a parent could ask for.

Speaking to Jay, Hayden Also Wanted to Correct One Persistent Misconception

That picture is noticeably different from the image suggested by years of headlines about Hayden "giving up" her daughter. She addressed that characterization directly on Jay's May podcast. "I think there's been a common and, you know, a very common misconception that I just gave up my child," she said. "That could not be further from the truth."

She had hoped her podcast conversation — along with the fuller account in her memoir — would finally give people enough context to understand how everything unfolded, and acknowledged that the outcome still came with grief.

Jay referred to a passage in Hayden's memoir about grieving the mother she thought she would be. The actress admitted that grief had "gotten the best" of her many times. In the beginning, she said, it truly was grief. But eventually, the emotion changed.

Because of the relationship she had with Kaya, and because of the way events ultimately unfolded, Hayden said she had reached a place of being capable of feeling profound gratitude alongside the pain. Kaya, she stressed, has "an incredible father" and "an incredible family."

The situation was still not the version of motherhood Hayden once hoped to experience. Yet she said she felt lucky that Kaya is safe, well-rounded, and was deeply connected to her. That bond was once one of her greatest fears.

When Kaya went away, Hayden worried she might have had to fight extremely hard to maintain any relationship with her daughter. Instead, she later said the outcome became "in a lot of ways" a blessing. That does not mean she did not ache for more. "I always want her here," Hayden said. "I always miss her." "But that's just not the way life is right at this moment," she acknowledged.

Hayden was also thinking well beyond Kaya's childhood. She believed that one day her daughter would be an adult with the freedom to decide for herself where she wants to live and how she wants to structure her life, and the actress had faith in what may have happened then.

Hayden believed Kaya would come to her and that the two would have had an "incredible relationship and bond and friendship" of the kind many parents never get to experience with their adult children.

Kaya's Parents Still Remained Close to Each Other After Their Split

One thing that seemed to have made the unconventional arrangement easier was Hayden's relationship with Wladimir. "Wlad and I are very close," she said in 2026. Despite no longer being a couple, she said all three of them communicated regularly.

Sometimes that meant a three-way FaceTime call between Hayden, Kaya, and Wladimir, whom Hayden described as "incredibly supportive." She said he has brought Kaya to the United States, allowing their daughter to spend time with members of Hayden's family.

Kaya was able to know her great-grandparents before Hayden's "grandpy" and "papa" died. "That was really important to me," the actress explained. Kaya still has Hayden's nana and grandmother in her life, and she even has an affectionate nickname for one of them: "Super Nana."

As for Wladimir, the actress went even further than simply describing them as cordial co-parents. "Wlad and I are still best friends," she said. Hayden believed few people in the world knew her as well as he did.

She also said they continued to have tremendous love for each other, and, perhaps most importantly for Kaya, respect. That respect had translated into a specific parenting rule. Hayden explained that her own childhood shaped an important choice she and Wladimir made after their romantic relationship ended.

Growing up, she said she heard her mother speak negatively about her father. "It hurt to constantly, you know, hear the person that you love be put down," Hayden explained. Because of that experience, she and Wladimir had promised they would never speak negatively about one another to Kaya.

According to Hayden, both had kept that promise. Instead, they made sure to speak only highly of each other to their daughter. Additionally, Hayden said she checked that Kaya remained respectful toward and loving with her father.

She also made sure Kaya understood how highly she regarded him, having called Wladimir a "hero" and "one of the bravest people" she knew. And by her account, Kaya "loves both of us to death."

That united front matters because the actress knew her daughter may eventually encounter a much less tidy version of their family story. In fact, some of that version is now contained in Hayden's own memoir, which also surrounds a concern she has voiced perhaps most poignantly.

There Is One Thing Hayden Did Not Want Kaya to Believe

Hayden released "This Is Me: A Reckoning" on May 19, 2026. The book examines extraordinarily personal parts of her life, including childhood fame, romantic relationships, her younger brother Jansen's death, difficult experiences in Hollywood, and the painful circumstances surrounding Kaya living primarily with her father.

At a Los Angeles event discussing the book, Hayden was asked to look ahead to the day when Kaya herself might read it. "I don't want her ever to read it and think any of it was her fault," Hayden said in People's report on what she hopes Kaya understands about the memoir.

"I love her so dearly," she continued. Hayden also acknowledged that the complicated story contained in the book is "a lot" for an 11-year-old to process. Still, she intended to continue protecting Kaya while her daughter is still young.

Hayden further explained that she was struggling with her mental health and substance abuse at the time and had lost her sense of herself. She also pushed back against another misconception — the idea that she had always been forced into treatment. Instead, she said she had been the one asking for help.

Hayden described herself as a "mother lion" who would have "burnt the whole world down" for her child. Still, Wladimir believed Kaya should remain in Europe while Hayden sought treatment for alcoholism and substance abuse. "That was incredibly difficult," the late mom admitted.

"The fact that my child wasn't going to be with me all day, every day was...you can't put words to it." For Hayden, it was not one clean emotion but "multiple feelings really layered together."